Baptizzle

So I was baptized today. I was pretty nervous about the video they showed beforehand... and frankly I hate listening and watching myself. I think I actually watch myself and hear myself on video less than once a year on average. I notice how I don't pronounce things clearly, or how I fidget so much all the time... and it really bothers me. The baptism was awesome though, and I really loved it. I've been struggling for a pretty long time about what baptism means, and whether I should be baptized or not.

I was baptized when I was a baby, so I've heard both ways... some people say that there is only one baptism, and I shouldn't be baptized as an adult, others say that being baptized as a baby means nothing since you aren't making the decision to follow Christ and therefore be baptized. I ended up deciding that it was a point of obedience for me, and I needed to be baptized under my own will as an adult. There is no spiritual change, and I don't believe my salvation was at stake. I just wanted to be obedience in baptism.

So that's what I think. I'm trying to arrange my journaling in a manner that is a little more appealing to others rather than the typical mumbling I do in my journal. I love to write, and I've missed expressing myself since college. My job doesn't really allow for expressive creative writing very much and I aim to use this blog for that purpose alone. My mind is a strange one, and people tend to enjoy seeing the paths I take in thought.